eighteen.

met up with the bests, sharyn and citra for a litte outing. choo couldnt come due to school. damnn. went to chinatown for a little "photoshoot", but i havent gotten the other pics. ehuehue. credits goes to sharyn and you can check out her other works at her deviantArt. sharyn, i just did a little promoting for you. DO NOT MAKE NOISE WHEN I ASK YOU TO EDIT MY PICTURES, WHICH IS RARELY. AHAH.

and i wore heels that day. fucking hell. bought slippers at fareast and kimice, damn nice la the feeling. my toes were dying sia srsly, cos i rarely use heels. and i dont like those dickweeds i bumped into at far east. some of you would know who cos i have alr told you. cb sia. cheeeebai.


i spent the whole day today over at fahmi's. he helped me to dye my hair. his sis also helped me. THANKS EHH ZIELLA. supposed to be blue but it turned out turquoise, greenish. but okay ah. i left a part of my hair blonde. so now i have four colours on my head. turquoise, blonde, brown due to previous colour, and black. HAHA.

haha cool per. fahmi's mum called me "Ah Gerl". wahaha.

and here you go. the "saloon-ist". hahahaa. no wonder ahh my colour turned out like that. AHAHAHAH KIDDINGG. LOL.

PS: debbieee sayanggg. cheer up okayy :] <333

seventeen.

and now.. i present to you, my (very ugly) room.

obviously, that is the view from outside my door.

upon entring, to the right, you will see a table full of rubbish. and that happens to be a portrait of me when i was young so stfu.

then you'll see my table. its been in the family for years. it was my bro's. im fucking pissed that i still cannot get a new one. bloody hell.

unmade bed. haaah. and that bear on my bed is from fahmi. and beside it is supposed to be bubbles. i think it's shy. teeheexx``.

that bear's from celine. hehh.

heh. stencil i did of dina. been there since she left for NZ. baby, i have not forgotten you! and some pictures which i have yet to update.

me and my mirrors. muahahaha. you can see my entire room. those are my 3 closets too, behind the mirrors. but only the left side is mine. the rest are my mum's.

ehh clotheshanger. which hangs some of my ..bags. and all those boxers, belong to my mum. apparently my room is a storeroom too. -.-"

my wardrobe. that tag was done years ago. hence, the ugliness. so's the stencil of tat monster on top. hahahaha. bottom one's by shoc.one.

and that is all. ahhahahaha, cb. lame post. BUT! more picture posts to come!!

sixteen.

SINGFEST SINGFEST. WAAHAAHHA. A7X, MxPx, GYM CLASS HEROES, AND MORE. WAHAHAHA. I WANT TO GO. ITS A TWO DAY EVENT AT FORT CANNING. and i heard its like 150$ for both days. BUT I STILL WANNA GO. DAMN.



and apen, its not your fault! so chill!

fifteen.

what may seem funny to you, may be hurtful or offending to another.

alot has been going on in my head. i feel insecure, paranoid, as if everyone around me is talking about me and laughing at me. idk. i hate it. i feel like a VUP, a very unimportant person. i know, everyone can still have fun with or without me so it doesnt really matter if im there or not right? sometimes i feel out of place. dont be mistaken, i do love my friends. maybe im just too over-sensitive. yes, paranoia can get the better of me. but that is how i feel. i hate being called a warrior now. its supposed to make me different but.. bahh dont even ask. but like i said, i feel like everyone's laughing at me. like im some kind of joke. am i? i dont think i am, but i guess others do. it sucks really. but maybe they dont mean no harm. do they? idk ahhhh. shit. i feel so fucked up. i had shitloads of shit running through my head since i left taka earlier on. so many things i wanna say. but i cant.







got a belated father's day gift for daddy. one thing im happy about today :]

fourteen.

met fahmi for awhile and we lepaked and talked. hahah had fun. played with our tamagotchis also. AAHAHAHAH. BUT! today, God showed me a sign.

as fahmi was walking me home, guess what i saw at the carpark in front of my house?! i saw, a Volkswagen Beetle Cabriolet [dont know what it is? hit the June 2007 link under archives, moron]. THE CAR OF MY DREAMS, SITTING THERE IN THE CARPARK. i have never even seen that car anywhere before, let alone right in front of my block! im convinced its a sign, that that's the car i am destined to have. HAAHHAHAHA COCK BUT WHATEVER. i still want that car. so hoottttt.

i miss yana and ayu. and i miss dina. and aziee and mai. and shahidah and emil. i miss all the girls. damn.

thirteen.

celine's birthday bash.




and gig at Lcube.



hahaha pretty random pictures. andl ife kinda sucks right now. fuckkkk.

twelve.

szup mahfuggaz. you know the new kfc meal? the miso crunch or whatever, the one with chicken and seaweed? not bad lei. it actually tastes, normal. hahaha. -.-

fahmi picked me up, went to town first tojust walk around and also for food. then we met up with ahmad, ahmad and azri at yp for that "something really good" gig . hahaha. yeah the two ahmads. was damn funny la. oh and i met yuji too. been so long since i last saw him. ehheh. anw yeah, went to long john silver cos ahmad -the curly hair one - wanted to eat and so did azri. so ok ahh blablabla laugh laugh. saw this nonsense idiot. i have no idea what goes on in his head la. and like ayu said, "rambot mcm beros". hahahhaa.

went backto the gig. met wan also. and he joined us. back in the crowd, guess who came up to me? emily! hahahaha. been quite some time since we met too. so we talked bit. and while we were doing so, paul twohill and joakim gomez walked up to this grp in front of us. i think it was one of the girls' birthday. and yes emily, i agree, joakim is kinddaaa hot. HAHA.

notice, i have ended every single paragraph, including this one, with a "haha"? haha.

after that emily and i parted ways and i went to join fahmi, shaheera, ahmad and azri at the right side of the stage. i love caracal. they are so good to look at, performance-wise la. i mean the showmanship is greeattt. theyre songs too. after a few songs from them, i had to go and i managed to say hi to zullie and talk for abit too. so sad i had to miss a vacant affair. ahhh! damned curfews. [look ma, no "haha" !!]



i actually dont really have plans for today. i want to go for the gig at lcube, but idk yet ah. cos fahmi just came home at 7 from midnight madness, and ayu hasnt replied. maybe i'll go with ayu first then meet fahmi at the gig. but i want to go to town cos i want to grab the yummylicious Triple Berry from Orange Julius, bec me and farah were talking about it last night on msn. and now my fat ass cravesss for it! ..and i just said the word yummylicious. i cannot believe that.

and i hate rain in the early morning. cos i wake up with a runny nose. dang.

ps: who's gng for funeral's gig in sg?

eleven.

people. i have decided. and this is the car i want.


Volswagen Beetle Cabriolet in red. fucking hot.


yes, i can rideee with the damn top down. HAH! i cannot wait for the moment i turn 18. so i can get my damn liscense and pass and get his friggin hot (ok, even if you dont agree that its hot, its still undeniably cute)car! ahah!! i be rolling everywhere in style after that. WAHAHAHAHA.


you see me rollinnnn, they hate ittt... blablabla

ten.

I WANT TO GET MARRIED ON THE BEACH.

HAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH no seriously. but i bet you guys are like "WTF?!" lol. cos i was watching miami ink, and yogi or yoji or whatever it is spelled got married on the beach. it was so simple and romantic and sweet and WAHH i was almost crying! ok no i wasnt but it was THAT sweeeeet. and when i said i want to get married on the beach, i mean the beach as in sentosa. not east coast park. fucking dirty please no.

i would book a section of the beach so there'll be no intruders who are just there for free food, and so there'll be no flying volleyballs halfway through the ceremony. can you imagine that? haha. and i want a kickass ride off to my honeymoon. WOOHOO. like a convertible or something. muahahahaha.




and i want a digimon pendulum version 10. and a psp. and a nitendo ds lite. anyone who can get me those, will be very muched loved by me forever and evaaahh. but the truth of the matter is that no one will get me any of those. because the digimon i want is not being sold alr. and psp and ds lite is too expensive for anyone to get it for somebody else. true? true.

nine.

SORRY AHH I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING. too lazy sia. geez. anyway lot has happened. a ripped toe nail and celine's party. that's just some of the things ive been doing. i dont really feel like blogging in detail about the happenings HAH.

my bro just got his eyerow pierced. andddd. apparently my parents are okay with it. they say its okay. THEY ALLOW IT. and I AM ALLOWED TO DO IT TOO. SO EXCITING! ahahahahahahhahaahhaha. i wanna get a monroe sia. ahahahhahahahahahahahahaha.

eight.

PICTURE POST. I MISS THE PAST TOO MUCH. HOPE YOU ALL LAUGH.
but really, i miss you darlings.

i just really love this. hahaha. the above pictures arent really in order, but i miss it still. didnt upload all the pics i had. that will just kill me. haha.

i love and miss you all<33

updates and pictures of yesterday's outing with my best girls tomorrow! or when i get the pics from sharyn :]