The Ambush Begins.

2007-12-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

Forget, the things we swore we meant..

i'm out. i'm done.

i'm have been, and will be, at my livejournal.

but you have to make an account and add me to view my entries (friends only)

merry christmass all, and have a happy new year in advance.

PISSED AND ANGRY BECAUSE

2007-12-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

1. CRAMPS ARE KILLING ME.
2. BORING DAY BUT ITS OUR ANNI SO :'(.
3. LOST MY FUCKING SKULL PENDANT, YES THE RED ONE. I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.
4. FLYLEAF WILL BE ON MTV SOON, MARK MY WORDS.

ALOT OF PICTURES

2007-11-25T02:39:00.000+08:00

EDIT: added more pictures! lol lol.

forgive me, cos they are all over the place!

i think this was on 3rd nov?
with emilyana, isha, ina, and for a short while, ashie!

8th nov..

9th nov! my brithday!

presents!

baby got me the cookies, flowers, and volcom bag

nadiah got me the skull bikini!

rachel, diana, gina got me a box of nail polish!

candice and faezah got me the skul necklace!

shafiq and yani got me the paperpeople sketch!

and mummy dearest got me the hoodie!

dinner at Tiffany's..

FUNFUNFUN gig, 10th nov.

there was a surprise for me, arman and ian after the gig! the 3 birthday kiddos. haha! awesomeee.

birthday cakes, for arman, me and ian (in pics)!
SABOED WITH CAKE GAHH HAHAHHA!

alot of us had cake on us, and this boy aka mahfuz didnt get, so i saved some in my hands and just splashed it on his face. then, the boys decided to destroy his face with lipstick HAHAHA hilarious.

Outback with choo and cit! 12 nov..

food was awesome, thanks girls!

icecream brownie cake! YEY!

Marina Sq with yana, radzi, kin kin(not in pics), 14nov..

NAFA assesment day! 16th nov..

my work ^_^

sorry nadiah, i just HAD to!

met them after assesment..

got that photo montage thing from ayukz! thanks!

fri 23rd nov...

i look small hahahaha

more pics la actually, but not nice la!

sat 24th nov...

WE ARE, WE ARE THE MONSTERS!

my hair looks like amy wino's in the 2nd one haha.

"Saya ni kan sapa bang....."

explicit content.

2007-11-14T01:33:00.000+08:00

szup folks. i am really tempted to blog most of the time, but when i think about what the fuck im supposed to type, i get super lazy and then i just dont blog. haha. but today is different. for one, im fucking bored. secondly.. IM DONE WITH PADA. FUCK YESSSSSSSSSSSS.

three fucking paintings. done within two fucking days. yes, you can imagine the quality of my work. rushed, but at least theyre done and i dont have to worry about failing. all i need is a fucking pass.

now all im left with is the final profuct for visual elements. and that i can finish in a day la easy. CHEH now i say easy. but when im gonna start doing it i'd like fuck laaaaaaaaaaa.

my birthday was awesome btw. to summarise. i hatd altogether, 3 birthday cakes, and one birthday browney/icecream thing. okay la 2 cakes specially for me, and another one was for me, arman and ian. hehe. i love you baby (fahmi, not ian duhh).

i got more presents this year than the last but well its not impt to get alot of presents! but it was nice hehe thank you thank you. so yes, this year's bday was awesome compared to last year (except a few minor minor MINOR complications).

okay. i refuse to blog on more redundant issues. so i shall update again with pictures (yes nadiah, promise promise) sooner than you know! :]

oh, and you should go count how many times i said 'fuck' in this entry.

2007-10-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

i cannot believe my dad just called me and my bro brainless.

seriously la. the money we have is the money we have. if dont have, too bad la. my dad said that we need to set aside money in case anybpdy need to borrow. o.O ??

my dad borrowed like 50 from me but hasnt returned me yet, and that's my raya money. but i dont ask it from him. i just keep quiet. then now he's calling me brainless for not having money?! hello. i do have, but its enough for ME. its not like im getting any allowance okay. sometimes i think my dad doesnt think before he says anything. VERY YAYA YOU KNOW. if we have that extra money to lend you of course we will la, but if we dont, then you cant say anything what cos ultimately its OUR MONEY. you always say that we can do anything with our money cos well, its OUR money. its like i cant stress it enough sia.

fuck, i cant believe he called me brainless.

a day in my life... my 18th oct!

2007-10-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

I woke up and went straight to the bathroom. I bring my phone everywhere, so i snap a pic of myself!

Entering my messy messy room tsk. Blow-dried my hair.

I foresaw a very messy day ahead, so picked out a casual outfit!

Not a breakfast kinda person, but i had some cakes my mum brought out. Did some work at the same time.
Packed up abit.

i realised i forgot timechecks! But i know this was at 11.45AM cos it was time to wake my brother up!
I have no idea why he has that thing in his room, he's a rugger, not a waterboy lol.

Was waiting for my bro to get ready, so i snapped a pic! I love how my mirorr looks like a surfboard.

View outside my window. Nothing much, but i like the greens :D
And now i am waiting for my mum to get ready. I keep waiting for everyone!!!

Time to leave! FINALLY. This was at 12noon!

Bro's sending me off to school!

Weather was so weird. First it was really sunny, then it rained, then it was sunny again!

We have arrived! Today, school's over at NIE Campus 3. Thank god for my brother, i dont have to take and hour and a half bus journey all the way to the other end of the country!

Was really earlehhh, so decided to go get me some fooood.
"Grilled fish with Spaghetti, to go please!"

My androgynous(sp?) little friend has arrived! HI NADIAH

O Sarah, the tall one! She got some chicken fillet thing..

We chill and eat outside before we go in.

I enter my studio and see my classmates! And my lecturer (old looking guy in black) begins the class proper at 2.05PM.
And Sarah decides to ask a question.

Apparently we had to sketch out some stuffs according to what we read on the screen. See if you can read it! =D
Oh, that's Jiayan!

The table was cramped, so i stacked my stuffs on a chair.
A random look at my journal!

More random looks! I'm not a tradtionalist, I prefer more graphic kinda art. or maybe i just can't draw LOL.

We proceed up to the 2nd storey of the studio, and Juneo (lecturer) talks about his artwork from 4 years ago.

Snapped a pic at the staircase! They make my everyday lessons so enjoyable :D

We head back down. Collected our drawing materials, and i snapped a pic of Nadiah. SO SKINNNYYYYY!

Would have taken a full-body pic of it! But the apron it was wearing was really obscene lol lol.
Juneo decided to make the skeleton look cheeky, haha. I have no idea why he brought this out "for us to draw" when, really, our drawings were not related to it whatsoever.

Drew and drew alot of random stuffs. We were really dirty! You can't really tell though cos i washed my hands before snapping the pics. But look at Diana's hands(3rd pic)! BLACKKK AS HELLLLL.

END OF CLASS!
Washed up at the sink in the studio. I have ugly dirty man feet. Lol. LOOK AT THE FLOOR. IT IS SO DAMN DIRTY!
Class was supposed to end at 5PM, but it ended at 5.50PM instead!

Off to the toilet we goo to wash up/touch up/do whatever. I washed my feet!

AAAND then my phone batt died. oh well. My dad picked me up and we went home and i only arrived home at.....

GODDDDDD.

Ooooh, but I was greeted by a THIS when i got home!
Pictures my mum went to develop earlier!

Got so excited, picked out some of the new pics (MOMO!) and pasted them on my wall, which is really one of my cupboard doors.
Sick of it All, Paramore, and a rough sketch of my granddaddy<33

So so tired.

Time to wash up! Lol at my face.

Yes, I realise I can't take a proper pic. And of to take a power-shower I go!
Weird right, i wash my face before bathing. haha.

And once I'm done... MY HAAAAAAAAAAAAAIRRR. All thanks to towel-drying, blow-drying, and towel-drying again!

8.22PM! And I check my mail.

Removed my contacts, and I decided to take a decent enough pic of myself. Proud, I am!

I decided to continue and complete my work from the night before.
Its actually the head of a mosquito. HAH. And those silver things are little circular mirrors, so you can see youself in like, the moquito's eyes. It looks so weird in the picture haha.
All done by 9.15PM. So fast!

I watch tv till 9.47PM. I was so bored, i decided to go online.

I check my Blogger..

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I stayed online all the way till 1AM.
My boyf called me and we talked awhile and I fell into a deep sleep at 1.30AM.
I'm sorry for the lack of time checks and picture towards the end!

A better post next time! Promise!

2007-10-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

i feel so hardworking! for one, im updating my blog. HAH. just goes to show i have nothing to do, really. and and and! i actually started and completed a piece for visual elements! and 25 pages for NIE journal! I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED.

but oh well. alot more to go. BUT HELLO, YEY AT MY HARDWORKING-NESS!!

ok la, so i cheated abit. theyre all random works and sketches from my random journals. but tough shit la, i dont care!

BUT! i just finished drawing this one :]

if you can tell who it is, YEY. if not, then, i suck.

2007-10-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!
and it was a really boring day hmm.

alright, this is just a note to self alright. a note that will be the cause of my death.

List of things to fucking do (I):

Basic Drawing, A1/A0 piece due 19th Oct.
History Essay, due 25th Oct.
NIE Mordernist Essay, due 25th Oct.
Ceramics, two projects due 16th and
30th Oct respectively.
NIE Visual Diary, min 75 pages, due 1st Nov.
Visual Elements on A1 assignment, due 5th Nov.
NIE PADA Project, three paintings, due 8th Nov.

List of things to fucking do (II):

Return markers to Sharyn.
Buy more markers.
Buy new set or pencils.
Buy paper ie drawing block in all sizes.
Buy new notebook.

yes. wonderful!

2007-10-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

screw you all, i love my classmates :D

PS: yo class, halloween party!

boy oh boy!

2007-10-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

wow, only 36 entries in this god forsaken blog. ha ha.

greetings fellow homosapiens! has been a good few weeks, i am happy. course, a few bad moments here and there, but all's well, end's well. WHATEVER LAH NONSENSE. ha ha haaa -.-

on saturday, yani, bro's ex, broke fast at our place. followed by a swarm of my bro's friends dominating the living room. this is why, rugby world cup sucks. but the game is good, mind you. just the whole 10+ people in living room. quite sad. plus, NOISE POLLUTION, HELLO?! TSK.

anw, sad that teams like NZ All Blacks and Australia lost. saad.

on sunday, which was yest, baby met me and my mum at geylang to get my baju kurong. then dad picked us up and we all broke fast at home. then off to vivo! something something happened, but dear, i love you no matter what.

just now met radzi! my friend of 3years who i have not had a proper outing with. i kid you not, its like having a netpal. hahahha. but we have met and talked a few times, but never like whole day. was nice. i mean, 3 years okay. and we tell each other our thoughts. its pretty cool :]

his bad quality camera phone.

and he wont admit it.

tsk.

Take note!

2007-10-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY!

[ITS AMAZING HOW I DIDNT THINK OF THIS SOONER HAH!]

Everyone should just start saving ther money now so that they can grant me my wish.

and what is that, you ask?

A BLOODY SHOPPING SPREE HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA.

omg yes, i know, i feel like a bloody genius now. now nobody who plans to give me a present will fret on what to get me. just call me up, set a date and time, and we will go out and buy my presents! wonderful! i feel so smart seriously.

i want and need new bags, tops, bottoms, bags, bags, tops, bottoms and ALOT MORE.

hahahahahahha.

go, save.

now.

hehe!hehe! ^_^V

2007-09-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

http://doublesincity.livejournal.com/

GO.

2007-09-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

if ever the day comes and you decide that i am good enough to be your friend, don't call me.
if ever the day comes and you decide that you desperately need my help, don't call me.
if EVER, the day comes and you decide that you actually care...

DON'T CALL ME.

cos i don't give a flying fuck anymore.

2007-09-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

I NEED MONEYYY.

i want to buy new t-shirts.
i want to buy new bags.
i want to buy new skirts.
i want to buy new shoes, God knows i need them hah.
i want to buy that art file with a sling woo.
i want to buy new tops which are not tshirts.
i want to buy new jeans.

omgahh. someone. bring. me. on. a. shopping. spree.
please?

because tmrw is the start of the fasting month..

2007-09-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

fuck you.
and you.
and you.
no no, not forgetting you.
and DEFINTELY, you.

fuck this. i hate being someone elses shadow. no one cares about the shadow do they? have you ever seen someone go "oh hey look! his/her shadow's soo cute!" cuntface. im sure you have said that before right. hmm.

i do not look forward to school. honestly, i do not like it. i dont know why. i feel like i dont fit in. i can be a noisy person but if there's no one there to hear me out then fuck it. why the fuck should i bother right?

i would just. die now. but baby is the only thing stopping me. and of course, my bestest best friend, cos she would be LOST without me. HAH HAH kiddingggg. or am i? hmmmm. lol.

aiyaaaaaah. i feel like ashlee simpson. HAHA. so stressed up about being her sister's shadow. its not easy to step out of it. at least she's worth millions. me? HAAAAH. buat bodoh sudah.

i hate life. :[

ahhh.

2007-09-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

hah i am back. from an extremely long blog hiatus. not like i have friends who reads my blog religiously but whatevs. HI ALL. ive been everywhere emotionally. paranoia has been following me all day everyday and it sucksss :D i am being sarcastic.

i am extremely excited to do my assignment on "culture" cos i think i am doing something ..weird. i miss my boyfriend and i wish he would pick me up from school everyday cos i do not want to be alone. we are officially nine months old. yey.

i miss my friends and how close we used to be. we still hang out but it is not the same as before. well. better than nothing. heh.

i lost 3 kg. im 54kg now. but i think i just gained 10pounds cos i ate chippy's curry chicken thing with lots of cheese. dude behind the counter gave me lotssssa cheese that i didnt ask for. but it was heavenn.

shahril and izzati are soo cute omgz.

fahmi just promised to marry me one day. hohohooo!

i want to lose more weight. yey for fasting month =D a reason for me to not eat and lose weight and not have everyone around me eating. woo hoo.

babi. sharin is 45kg. i. must. weigh. 44. kg. or. less.

cant wait to do culture!! it shall be my thinspiration! haha. ok just in case you were wondering. i am doing my work based on "eating disorders".

fuck you all. goodbye!

2007-08-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

DINA NATASHA TASLIM.
SINGAPORE'S FAVOURITE, ONE AND ONLY GEEK.
IF YOU ARE READING THIS, COME BACK.
PLEASE COME BACK. COME BACKKK.
I PROMISE THINGS WILL BE BETTER.
I PROMISE.

2007-08-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

wahh i got dry cough. nabei irritating. anyw. on sat, i met nadiah and gf at esp to do the project on modernism. bahhhahahaha. funny sia. we did our work, but we alot of laughs i tell you. but, so sorry i cant share it nehx. HAHA k sorry inside joke. ehh then i waited for my baby to come then nadiah and gf went off. thenn we waited for ayu and sharin and we went off to marina square.

picturesss =D

"angel". aahhaha sepak my face la.

ayu said i look ang moh. AISEH.

cool riiight.

-.-

well...... pic of the day=D

i went to meet choo and citra just now. aaand...

-grabbed chippy's at far east

-walked to citra's new condo, Draycott 8. so near la basket!!

-took a mini tour of the place, which is like, super majorly nice

-camwhored

-watched movies at the mini theathre which i swear is so cool.

-AH I WANT TO MOVE TO DRAYCOTT 8!!!

haha fuck la. pictures again =D

hmmm.

i wanted to look tiny. lol

sexy.

well, this is what happens when you're me. ahahah

fat.

randommm.

party like a rockstar!

eh, the pics with the white couch is the mini theatre. really comfy.

they say i look super chinese here. i think my face looks weird la.

byebye!

mashed up picture post!

2007-08-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

Classmates

With boyfie<3

Baybeats 07

Singfest 07!!

omg BEST DAY EVERR. why?

- met MXPX, Gym Class Heroes, Cobra Starshio, Crowned King, The Academy Is over at Raffles Plaza Hotel lobby,

- took pictures and got an autograph from Mike and Tom from MXPX!!!

-took pictures with some of the members from Gym Class,

- got on MXPX's guestlist thanks to Big Tom, MXPX's manager,

- which means SINGFEST FOR FREEE!

- got the rest of our friends in,

- AWESOMEST PUNK RAWK SHOW EVER THANKS TO MXPX!!

ok. thanks to shahril nyaaaaam for bringig the cam and taking pictures. there are more pics, but i have yet to get the rest of them.. ~~as well as baybeats pics from haikal~~.. and class pics from sarah. bahahha. looks like another picture post is coming up real soon =D

2007-08-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

just got home at around 1am and..

ITS THE BEST FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE. AHAHAHAHAHHA

hello operator

2007-08-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

i love you, A Vacant Affair. but i love my boyfie more =D

baybeats was awesome. yesterday's was shit. but today was fucking awesome. thought i went only to catch AVA, but still. fuck yes!! ive waited months to mosh again man. seriously, since i havent been going to gigs [last one was what, total metalcore 3?] i really couldnt wait to hurt people. cheh, mcm paham tau!! mintak kene sepak.

but fun seh, cos i met all the friends i havent seen in so long.

fahmi picked me up at my place. he got me a new mp3! dont have to use my mom's! yey hehe. told me to go back up to transfer songs from his psp to me new mp3 while he waited but mommy asked him to come up to our house. which was a good thing cos i didnt know how to operate his psp. ahha.

went for food at habourfront. bumped into shahril on the train. got off at cityhall and met sharin and ayu at the adelphi. shaheera, syaffiq, axel and more joined us. walau seh, alot of young and very small "punks and skinheads". kinda funny. heard one saying "ampai nanti tangka [police can catch us]" or something like that. dunno uh i forgot. so farnie.

walked to ljs, met yaz there.he wasted to eat but we all thought AVA's set was at 7-730 and it was already 7 so we walked there. sorry yaz :[

then there, we all like dunno where theyre performing. and we walked from stage to stage sia. kecoh. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. favourite part. we met haikal and his camera. HAHAHAHAH. fish eye lens. and we camwhored. like one whole group sia. like class photos. hakko. i'll post them when i get them from haikal.

then blablabla went for AVA's set. AHH FUN FUN FUN. damn funny. songs havent start got circle pit alr. cb. all hardcore dancing to no music. HAHAHAHAHA. and when the thing actually started, i saw yaz fell at some point. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH FUNNY SIA. but yes, i fell too. but nvm some kind soul helped me up.

and then we all thought we lost our bags but lucky didnt uh. ok im tired. [EH SORRY AHH MY OLD FRIEND JUST PM ME SAY I LOOK HOT NOW BAHAHAHAHAH SO FUNNY THANKS EH RYAN!!]

i hate the way i blog. i go into details but its not really detailed. why must i blog about the day? so boring sia. bahahaha. cb. fuck. im happy. im tired. i need money. i lost my cardigan too. nice. i saw Terror shirt at penin. fuck, im buying.

HAHHHH. yey fahmi said i lost weight. yes balls. but my weight still the same sia. know how heavy? 57kg. nabei! fuck! i run around at home you know. ahahahhahahahha cos too lazy to go downstairs to jog around the estate.

i want photos. so happy. they look pretty. today was awesome. i love my strawberry body mist. everyone loves it. im buying some more.

i miss previous years' baybeats. so much funnerrr. oh and this year and last year i met roy in the pit. damn funny. like exactly the same way as last year, except that he didnt elbow me. ooh lets talk about last year's baybeats since we're already on that topic. so fun you know!! but security damn tight. but fun! and i remember being drenched in sweat from head to toe. and everyone was saying "did you take a bath or something!?" hahaahah. and i saw fahmi there! mehehhe. oh and last year we got the red baybeats stickers. remember!? and everyone pasted it everywhere! like really! all over handphones, shoes. so funny.

sigh. makes me miss the past even more. sigh. and this is a long post. how useless.

BAHRAHRAHRAH

2007-07-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

hello blog. woohoo! haha. shit. ive been soooo tired lately with school and all. forgive me if i do not update. teeheexzx``. anyway. nafa's fine... so far. i would show you pictures of my classmates but my phone is too stupid. and its really cold now btw.

after weeks of not updating you would think that i will have alot to say. BUT NO. my mind is completely blank O.O bahhh. oh i finished reading the new HP book some time back. knew i shouldnt have read the spoilers. damnit.

how's everyone? sharyn, citra and choo, you are missedddd! and i havent seen choo in so long. dohh. another day to meet up perhaps?

yesterday i met baby and we went off to wheelock for tapestry. friends are performing so therefore, we are there to show our support. was a really fun day with all the friends around us. and we went off to cineleisure for the other tapestry performances aaaand haha! guess who i met there of all people? marzuq. hahahahahhahahaha. with his bandmates [?!!?!!!!] HAAHHAHA. sorry la zuq, if youre reading this. just a bit funny la. cant see you in a band playing drums. lol. didnt know you could anyway. hehh =D

i love paramore. dont you? piz's band performed paramore's songs and wooooo it was nice except for the sound system. a wee bit too loud. made the vocalist's voice sound shrieky when it wasnt.

i want to get a Terror shirt. very nice laa all the designs i saw online. damnnnn. and its really so cold now, im wearing my hoodie. HAH.

sian. i hate drawing now. and screw NIE. sorry ah but the lack of directional signs made half the class late for class. which includes me. grumpyyyyyy. and that damn security guard did not help at all. we simply asked how to get to our class and she said "use your legs." WAH POWER RIGHTTT. slap her face ah.

i just want to survive the next four years. then all i have to do is torture all the poor kids i will be teaching. MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA.

goodbye.

love you babyyyyyy

let the flames begin.

2007-07-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

wow. its been some time since i typed anything here. ooops. but anyway, what i really want to say is..

firstly, the new harry potter movie sucks. i thought it was really boring and it was disappointing how soooo many parts of the book were cut! i mean, yes it is understandable that the book is too long to have everything crammed in that movie but still.. other entertaining parts that have been taken out were the ones i really wanted to see! like like like.. ron and hermione and draco malfoy becoming prefects. ron trying out for quidditch [cant believe not a single part on that sport!] as Keeper and how he sucks. and neville didnt find that room of requirement, dobby the house elf did! ahh but anyways. the movie sucked to me. cant wait for the 6th one. harry potter and the half blood prince. whyyy? ~~cos draco malfoy becomes a death eater and snape turns out to be a spy for voldermort and ends up killing dumbledore.~~ AHAHAH SPOILERRRR!!! too bad la if you happened to read it. i already crossed it out ^_^

secondly, im really disappointed in what a few friends of mine and a boy [i refuse to call him a friend, sorry but i dislike you so] did to a friend of mine. it just wasnt right. imagine if it had happen to you? im not gonna drop names, cos im nice [sjbfawjegb;iwhe8]. im not taking sides but its just that.. its not right.

moving on. i cant wait for thurdsay! its orientation day at nafa. please please please i do not want gay/loser/boring/moronic classmates. pleassseee. glad that i have bestie to go with mee! and on saturday, might be going paintball-ing with friends, woohooo!!! but not yet confirmed ah haha. fuckk cant wait for school to start mann. hahaha. then i'll something to look forward to everyday instead of just every other day.

and my green hair is fading. so sad.

this does not count as a post.

2007-07-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

i swear. it would make me feel so good, to beat the shit out of my arrogant brother instead of biting my arm due to sheer anger.

nineteen.

2007-07-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

how ~*scen3~* is that? hahahaha. but whatever. watched hot fuzz with fahmi yesterday. bumped into khairil and emil! watched the same movie some more. same theatre. ahha! i think hot fuzz was okay. quite funny in the most nonsensical way la! hahaha. but yeah. ok la.

then today i met up with yana and ayu. talked and all at rooftop. but then after awhile i like mengamok sendiri [i dont know how to translate that into english la. tell you when i find out], i dont know why uh. and like irritating you know the mats disturbing us. more of yana la. but it was super irritating. "feeweet" "psst" here and there. nabei cheebai. so many times sia. they walked past us so many times. and when they went down to the bayside there, still looking up and "feeweet"-ing and all sia. kimice. then ayu keep telling us about them looking up at us. then i look down ahh. then they stop. so we went back to talking ah. then they do it again! then i like mengamok already. then ayu say uh "eh fina, maki sikit fina[scold them eh]", i looked down i shout ah "EH DIAM BOLEH TAK [SHUT UP CAN OR NOT]?!!" and then they disappeared.

kimiceee. bloody hell irritating sia. then we all continued talking again. and guess what sehh. the mats went back up to the rootfop. and this really fuck ugly matrep came to me and said something like "sorry eh, but we didnt disturb you ah but the people there (pointing to a grp of chinese people celebrating birthday)." WHAT THE FUCK. WHERE GOT SUCH THING ONE. WANT TO LIE ALSO, COME UP WITH A BETTER LIE LA SEH. then i just stare at him. then i waved and said "bye." with my face like stone like that. but he still stand there talking. even his friend like laughing already. seriously sia, bloody hell. i was in a bad mood, and he irritate me and all of us, and they have the nerve to come up to us and talk to us. and when i wave and said "bye", it means that i do NOT want to talk to you anymore. stupid sia. and he went blabberring on but i couldnt care less ah. even ayu said, they bother sia to come all they way up. nonsense.

ugh. fuck ugly mooks.

eighteen.

2007-06-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

met up with the bests, sharyn and citra for a litte outing. choo couldnt come due to school. damnn. went to chinatown for a little "photoshoot", but i havent gotten the other pics. ehuehue. credits goes to sharyn and you can check out her other works at her deviantArt. sharyn, i just did a little promoting for you. DO NOT MAKE NOISE WHEN I ASK YOU TO EDIT MY PICTURES, WHICH IS RARELY. AHAH.

and i wore heels that day. fucking hell. bought slippers at fareast and kimice, damn nice la the feeling. my toes were dying sia srsly, cos i rarely use heels. and i dont like those dickweeds i bumped into at far east. some of you would know who cos i have alr told you. cb sia. cheeeebai.

i spent the whole day today over at fahmi's. he helped me to dye my hair. his sis also helped me. THANKS EHH ZIELLA. supposed to be blue but it turned out turquoise, greenish. but okay ah. i left a part of my hair blonde. so now i have four colours on my head. turquoise, blonde, brown due to previous colour, and black. HAHA.

haha cool per. fahmi's mum called me "Ah Gerl". wahaha.

and here you go. the "saloon-ist". hahahaa. no wonder ahh my colour turned out like that. AHAHAHAH KIDDINGG. LOL.

PS: debbieee sayanggg. cheer up okayy :] <333

seventeen.

2007-06-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

and now.. i present to you, my (very ugly) room.

obviously, that is the view from outside my door.

upon entring, to the right, you will see a table full of rubbish. and that happens to be a portrait of me when i was young so stfu.

then you'll see my table. its been in the family for years. it was my bro's. im fucking pissed that i still cannot get a new one. bloody hell.

unmade bed. haaah. and that bear on my bed is from fahmi. and beside it is supposed to be bubbles. i think it's shy. teeheexx``.

that bear's from celine. hehh.

heh. stencil i did of dina. been there since she left for NZ. baby, i have not forgotten you! and some pictures which i have yet to update.

me and my mirrors. muahahaha. you can see my entire room. those are my 3 closets too, behind the mirrors. but only the left side is mine. the rest are my mum's.

ehh clotheshanger. which hangs some of my ..bags. and all those boxers, belong to my mum. apparently my room is a storeroom too. -.-"

my wardrobe. that tag was done years ago. hence, the ugliness. so's the stencil of tat monster on top. hahahaha. bottom one's by shoc.one.

and that is all. ahhahahaha, cb. lame post. BUT! more picture posts to come!!

sixteen.

2007-06-25T16:16:00.001+08:00

SINGFEST SINGFEST. WAAHAAHHA. A7X, MxPx, GYM CLASS HEROES, AND MORE. WAHAHAHA. I WANT TO GO. ITS A TWO DAY EVENT AT FORT CANNING. and i heard its like 150$ for both days. BUT I STILL WANNA GO. DAMN.

and apen, its not your fault! so chill!

fifteen.

2007-06-24T01:34:00.001+08:00

what may seem funny to you, may be hurtful or offending to another.

alot has been going on in my head. i feel insecure, paranoid, as if everyone around me is talking about me and laughing at me. idk. i hate it. i feel like a VUP, a very unimportant person. i know, everyone can still have fun with or without me so it doesnt really matter if im there or not right? sometimes i feel out of place. dont be mistaken, i do love my friends. maybe im just too over-sensitive. yes, paranoia can get the better of me. but that is how i feel. i hate being called a warrior now. its supposed to make me different but.. bahh dont even ask. but like i said, i feel like everyone's laughing at me. like im some kind of joke. am i? i dont think i am, but i guess others do. it sucks really. but maybe they dont mean no harm. do they? idk ahhhh. shit. i feel so fucked up. i had shitloads of shit running through my head since i left taka earlier on. so many things i wanna say. but i cant.

got a belated father's day gift for daddy. one thing im happy about today :]

fourteen.

2007-06-20T17:45:00.000+08:00

met fahmi for awhile and we lepaked and talked. hahah had fun. played with our tamagotchis also. AAHAHAHAH. BUT! today, God showed me a sign.

as fahmi was walking me home, guess what i saw at the carpark in front of my house?! i saw, a Volkswagen Beetle Cabriolet [dont know what it is? hit the June 2007 link under archives, moron]. THE CAR OF MY DREAMS, SITTING THERE IN THE CARPARK. i have never even seen that car anywhere before, let alone right in front of my block! im convinced its a sign, that that's the car i am destined to have. HAAHHAHAHA COCK BUT WHATEVER. i still want that car. so hoottttt.

i miss yana and ayu. and i miss dina. and aziee and mai. and shahidah and emil. i miss all the girls. damn.

thirteen.

2007-06-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

celine's birthday bash.

and gig at Lcube.

hahaha pretty random pictures. andl ife kinda sucks right now. fuckkkk.

twelve.

2007-06-16T10:25:00.000+08:00

szup mahfuggaz. you know the new kfc meal? the miso crunch or whatever, the one with chicken and seaweed? not bad lei. it actually tastes, normal. hahaha. -.-

fahmi picked me up, went to town first tojust walk around and also for food. then we met up with ahmad, ahmad and azri at yp for that "something really good" gig . hahaha. yeah the two ahmads. was damn funny la. oh and i met yuji too. been so long since i last saw him. ehheh. anw yeah, went to long john silver cos ahmad -the curly hair one - wanted to eat and so did azri. so ok ahh blablabla laugh laugh. saw this nonsense idiot. i have no idea what goes on in his head la. and like ayu said, "rambot mcm beros". hahahhaa.

went backto the gig. met wan also. and he joined us. back in the crowd, guess who came up to me? emily! hahahaha. been quite some time since we met too. so we talked bit. and while we were doing so, paul twohill and joakim gomez walked up to this grp in front of us. i think it was one of the girls' birthday. and yes emily, i agree, joakim is kinddaaa hot. HAHA.

notice, i have ended every single paragraph, including this one, with a "haha"? haha.

after that emily and i parted ways and i went to join fahmi, shaheera, ahmad and azri at the right side of the stage. i love caracal. they are so good to look at, performance-wise la. i mean the showmanship is greeattt. theyre songs too. after a few songs from them, i had to go and i managed to say hi to zullie and talk for abit too. so sad i had to miss a vacant affair. ahhh! damned curfews. [look ma, no "haha" !!]

i actually dont really have plans for today. i want to go for the gig at lcube, but idk yet ah. cos fahmi just came home at 7 from midnight madness, and ayu hasnt replied. maybe i'll go with ayu first then meet fahmi at the gig. but i want to go to town cos i want to grab the yummylicious Triple Berry from Orange Julius, bec me and farah were talking about it last night on msn. and now my fat ass cravesss for it! ..and i just said the word yummylicious. i cannot believe that.

and i hate rain in the early morning. cos i wake up with a runny nose. dang.

ps: who's gng for funeral's gig in sg?

eleven.

2007-06-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

people. i have decided. and this is the car i want.

Volswagen Beetle Cabriolet in red. fucking hot.

yes, i can rideee with the damn top down. HAH! i cannot wait for the moment i turn 18. so i can get my damn liscense and pass and get his friggin hot (ok, even if you dont agree that its hot, its still undeniably cute)car! ahah!! i be rolling everywhere in style after that. WAHAHAHAHA.

you see me rollinnnn, they hate ittt... blablabla

ten.

2007-06-14T00:35:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO GET MARRIED ON THE BEACH.

HAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH no seriously. but i bet you guys are like "WTF?!" lol. cos i was watching miami ink, and yogi or yoji or whatever it is spelled got married on the beach. it was so simple and romantic and sweet and WAHH i was almost crying! ok no i wasnt but it was THAT sweeeeet. and when i said i want to get married on the beach, i mean the beach as in sentosa. not east coast park. fucking dirty please no.

i would book a section of the beach so there'll be no intruders who are just there for free food, and so there'll be no flying volleyballs halfway through the ceremony. can you imagine that? haha. and i want a kickass ride off to my honeymoon. WOOHOO. like a convertible or something. muahahahaha.

and i want a digimon pendulum version 10. and a psp. and a nitendo ds lite. anyone who can get me those, will be very muched loved by me forever and evaaahh. but the truth of the matter is that no one will get me any of those. because the digimon i want is not being sold alr. and psp and ds lite is too expensive for anyone to get it for somebody else. true? true.

nine.

2007-06-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

SORRY AHH I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING. too lazy sia. geez. anyway lot has happened. a ripped toe nail and celine's party. that's just some of the things ive been doing. i dont really feel like blogging in detail about the happenings HAH.

my bro just got his eyerow pierced. andddd. apparently my parents are okay with it. they say its okay. THEY ALLOW IT. and I AM ALLOWED TO DO IT TOO. SO EXCITING! ahahahahahahhahaahhaha. i wanna get a monroe sia. ahahahhahahahahahahahahaha.

eight.

2007-06-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

PICTURE POST. I MISS THE PAST TOO MUCH. HOPE YOU ALL LAUGH.
but really, i miss you darlings.

i just really love this. hahaha. the above pictures arent really in order, but i miss it still. didnt upload all the pics i had. that will just kill me. haha.

i love and miss you all<33

updates and pictures of yesterday's outing with my best girls tomorrow! or when i get the pics from sharyn :]

seven.

2007-06-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

SHIT SIA. i was looking at videos of Sick Of It All live in Singapore, and i totallly miss moshing! haahahahahahahahah! no seriously sia. the circle pits, wall of death.. especially the wall of death. nyeahahahahha. damn. really wanna mosh sia one day. but i dontknow when i'll start going to gigs again. heh.

im stuffed. i ate a whole lot of food just now and i can barely breathe sia. yeah that bad. but its kay la, i didnt eat anything much earlier on so i guess this makes up for it.

boyfie came over for a while around 4pm. sorted out some isues and i'm glad its over. ilytd! realllyyy! hahaha. gonna be hitting the half-year mark in a few days. *teehee* HAHA.

ayu jom ah, lets mosh together like we used to again! and boyfie, dont try to stop us! MUAHAHAHA. but no really. hehhe. i really miss the past sia. dangg.

anyway, yesterday, went over to ayu's place with yana for a movie marathon! but ended up watchng only Turistas. -.-" but its all good la, cos we spent the rest of the day eating and yacking away.. shit, im gonna gain so much weight fo shizzle. i'll upload pictures soon!

gonna be meeting the best ones tomorrow over at vivo. even though im already super sick of that place. haha. so its gonna be me, sharyn, choo and citraaa! im excited. hahaha.

this entry is like so empty. cos i really have nothing interesting to blog about! haha. im so laaaamee. i really feel like moshing now sia cb.

six.

2007-06-01T23:36:00.001+08:00

pirates was great. hilarious! haha. best thing is that i didnt watch the first two movies, but i understand the show. i think. aiyah. gold class was damn shiok. i kept playing with the chair! and i was practically lying down with the blanket covering me and all. so comfy! me and boyfie shared the set meal which sharyn kindly treated us to. thanks bestie! ahah. guess that was one of the better parts of today heh.

so we walked around passing time cos sharyn was only working at 7.30pm. we walked everywhere. headed to the rooftop and all. around 4plus 5, got a call from dina the geek! ahahah! I MISS THAT WOMAN! it was so nice hearing her voice after so loonggg! talked about somestuffs which i will not tell youuu [nanny nanny poo poo!]. it was quite a long chat and really, it was nice to hear your voice dina instead of the usualy text messages we send on occasionally :]

around 7 i left with boyfie and we went to penin. wanted to get the cap but stupid shop wasnt open and the other one i likes was 20$. and i dont think i wear caps that often so i didnt buy anything in the end. bleahhhh. since we idnt know where to go after that, we headed home. well actually, we headed over to my place, then he headed hom. hahha. -.-

i officially have no plans for tmrw. i wanna do something with my friends who i havent hung out with in a while but guess theyre too busy or just cant make it. so we'll see how tmrw goes. if not, just another day at home then. why is that not a surprise. hmm.

ps: b, remember what i told you okay :] ily.

five.

2007-06-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

had a little late night, last minute chat with ariff and axel. i say last minute cos i had alr switched of my computer and was trying to sleep. of course that didnt work. but it was funnnn. was laughing all the way siaa ahahahahha. lucky for me i have company during my sleepless nights. hah.

so managed to catch some sleep a littl before 8am. and i got up around 2pm. thats about six hours of sleep. not enough!!! a pig like me needs at least 12 hours. i need my beauty sleep, thank you very much. so anw, got up, bathed and got ready to head over to my aunt's place. for that family gathering thing. FREE FOOD!! everyone brought something even though it wasnt exactly a potluck, and my family on my father's side, is preeettty big. so thats alot of food. and it so turns out that its my aunt's 55th birthday as well! aaaaaaand. she gave all of us, young and old, some moolahh! moneyyy!! ahahahahahah. my dad was like whispering "this one confirm cpf oneee". hahaha im not complaining anw. when we left i got a bit more here and there and i am a happy girl! wooohoooo.

pirates tmrw! or today cos its alr considered fri , whichever you prefer. movie's at 12 so that means i will either have to sleep early, or dont sleep at all. we'll see how things go. sharyyynnnnnnn<3!!

im listening to noise in the middle of the night. it been so long since i did that. actually its ben a long time since i did alot of things. like hang out with ayu and yana, linny, who sadly had to cancel our plans for saturday :[ , and yazzy. but its okay you know whatever. haha. but i do hope to hang out with you guys soon. yaz one day i will punch you myself for emotional damage. ahaahah dont understand? fuck you la.

four.

2007-05-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

im craving for a pushpop. but anyway..

happy vesak day, ya'll! hahaha. so i slept at 8.30am yesterday and i woke up around... 4pm? ahahah my dad woke me up. so i used the computer awhile and then bathed and headed out to pick my mum up and went for dinner ..which is really breakfast, lunch and dinner altogether. hahaah and yes i need to lose weight ^_^v

boyf's asleep. hope he gets well. HOR B. GET WELL. hurhurhur gahh. no call tonight cos i want him to sleep early. and it looks like its gonna be another long night cos there's no much people ican talk to. radzi, that means you have to suffer with me!! hey, he'sbee a friend for almost 3 yrs, he;s supposed to do this kinda thing. lol.

have i mentioned that tmrw's, or rather today's, initial plan to catch Pirates with bestie and boyf have been cancelled due to a last minute family gathering? yeeeaaaahhh. was like super bummed at first but since she's still free on friday, not all is lost! hhahaa.

im going to go find out what to do. if nothing interesting pops into my mind, expect another meaningless entry. isnt that just wonderful? haaa.

i miss you boyf<3

three.

2007-05-30T06:36:00.000+08:00

im still awake. haahahahahahahhaahha. oh, and some time around 4ish in the morning, irfan's plan to scare the shit out of me, did not work. muahahaha!

two.

2007-05-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

im going to stick with this skin because i like brown and its simple like me. hurhurhur. so anyway i cant sleep. i always sleep between 3-5am, sometimes it'll be around 6-7am. i guess this is what happens when somene goes on a friggin 7 months holiday. my IQ is going down as we speak.

my back hurts alot, has been for the past few weeks. kills me everytime i sit and try to get up. like some pregnant woman. hah.

ugh im so bored. ahhh how can i not stress this enough. life is a bore. a BORE. everyday i do the same old routine, which is wake up at 3, use the computer, watch a lil tv, dinner, watch a lil tv, use the computer and sleep around 3 or maybe later. i rarely talk to my brother, cos he's barely home. and its a sad thing cos now we understand each other.

well anyway, cant wait for school to start just so i have something to do the next day. its fine if my holiday only lasted 2-3months, but 7 months is crazzyy without work! ah yes, the question. "why dont i get a job?" yeah see, parents are choosy about where i work. no fnb line, sales line, only office jobs. which is fine but do you know how hard it is to get a part-time office job for an O lvl graduate? jeeez. and they complain and complain about me sitting on my ass all day but its not my fault i cant get a job in an office.

i need to get a life.

one.

2007-05-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

yeah. i decided to create a blog so that my friends without livejournal accounts could read what i have got to say. at least those who bother, that is. still in the process of looking for a blogskin that will suit me, which seems to be a teeeeny bit hard, but whatever.

life's a bore and even more so when people are starting to slip away again. ugh. stayed home alot these few days, but i'll live. only events i am looking forward to is Pirates this thursday with the bestie and boyfie over at vivo's gold class. im excited hahaha.

also, cant wait for celine's party. so many people who i havent talked to in so long. only tough part, is looking for the present. hohoho, the search begins.